Avoidance with a purpose

So things have been, hmmm ... interesting, yes we'll use that one.  

 

Things have been interesting, and in my need to avoid the interesting for a while I hid in the school room and caught up on my list of blog posts.  I don't scrapbook, I don't journal, BUT  I do blog.  It's my way of keeping up on this crazy we life we live, that, and my e-mail updates. I will turn it all into a nice little Lockhart family book at the end of the year (that's the plan anyway). 

 

So, notice the dates if you are interested in chronology and enjoy some snipits of life that we wanted to preserve.  I was trying to get them in chronological order but somehow two snuck past me so they got thrown in at the end.  

 

One last thing:  In fasting today I felt so impressed by a thought that kept circling around me all day.  "It's not so important what I am doing when things are going well; it's more important what I am doing when things are not going well.  When I can't see the rainbow, am I still looking for it?  When money is tight and I can think of a thousand things I could use tithing for, do I pay it?  When my faith is wavering do I ask God anyway, and seek for the faith to be heard and answered?  When my children want answers and I don't have them, do I loose it and give up, or do I keep doing all of those things that will teach them how to receive themselves?  Do I do what I feel instinctively best about, or surround myself with people, thoughts, and feelings that excuse and justify my ability to hold on to the doubt and fear, the anger and frustration, the blame and accusation?"  I have discovered in this brief time here in Louisiana that it is definitely not about what I do in the good times, and all about what I do in the 'interesting' times.  

 

It reminds me of something on a friends blog about us all getting tired and how it's not so important that we get tired, but it's what we choose to do when we are tired. Sometimes I give up and disappear for a bit, sometimes I push through and just take that one little tiny step forward.  I always feel better when I take that tiny step, always.  It's amazing how giant, tiny steps can be, when they are in the right direction.  

 

Addendum - Okay so I just noticed that it posts them according to the date and time you type them up, not when you actually publish them so never mind the trying to get them chronological!